Hate hate
I hate getting periods.
Besides the usual reasons i.e. cramps, feeling bloated, drama queen tendencies, unexplainable headaches (technically they’re explainable but they’re unexplainable until I go to the bathroom), laziness, etc., I’m also a hater when I’m on my period. And I don’t hate just anyone; I have flavors of the month. I don’t know how my mind works when it picks who to hate but I just start hating. And I hate hating someone. Not cuz I feel bad hating that person unreasonably but cuz I hate feeling hate. I hate what my heart feels when I hate. I hate feeling agitated. I hate the feeling of a tight chest and tense face muscles (hell, tense muscles everywhere). And once I start feeling hate, it’s so difficult to snap out of it. Hate is all I feel. I can’t even enjoy anything else. What’s worse is that even with the realization that the hate I have is unfounded, I still can’t overcome it.
I just hope that I’m not actually acting my hate towards the person.
If it happens to be you, I apologize in advance.
Claire, xo
